I really have no idea what I’m talking about.

Not long ago I ended up in a discussion on the biological origin of teh gays, in which I was expected to express a belief.  Or to put it less stiffly, everyone seemed to hold a strong opinion while simultaneously knowing nearly nothing about, you know, biology.  Me, I have no idea.  I’ve heard a lot of arguments here and there, I hazily recall reading an issue of SEED magazine mostly on gay animals, but at the end of the day I know enough biology to know that I am utterly ignorant about biology.

What I mostly took away from the discussion was an interest in our collective interest in the question WHY?  Not so much why we ask why, but why we seem to need to know why.  Why it is so pressing to have an answer to why. Of course I don’t know why, I’m just musing about it.

§ I suppose one could say religion, science, and all that are expressions of our need to have an answer, even if it isn’t a very good answer.

§ More mundanely when people voice their opinions, they frequently need a reason why other people do not hold the same opinion.  This reason is generally because that person is stupid or evil.  It is simply unfathomable that someone could hold a different opinion for reasons you don’t know.  Maybe they know something you don’t, or you know something they don’t, or maybe you are the stupid/evil person.

§ The need to answer the question w.r.t identity seems to be more pressing, especially for those who are different in some meaningful way (what is a meaningful way? I don’t know.).  It suddenly becomes relevant to know where homosexuality came from when you are one, or to know why you are fat if you are fat, or where your fatal disease comes from if you have it.  Maybe you are a nerd because you (think you have) Aspergers, or because everyone else is dumber than you.  Whatever the case people need a reason.

I suppose lumping medical conditions into this category is unfair, as one might say a medical condition is some outside agent that takes an otherwise “normal” person and afflicts them with some abnormality.  But then where does one draw the line?  Are gays gay because of a gay gene, or just because that’s how they choose to be?  If it’s the former then they are innocent victims afflicted by something they cannot control, if it’s the latter then it is a personal choice open to public scrutiy.  Maybe the distinction is utterly irrelevant.

§ Working my way back to the original question, in a way, the answer is more about how society should frame its response than about any actual need to find an answer.  I suppose the idea of a genetic origin to homosexuality is seen as being important to hold back those who would “de-gay” the gays, which is itself a hold-over from the time when the biological origin of homosexuality was some mental disorder (taking the hard-core materialist stance that psychological disorders are fundamentally problems of squishy brain bits).  This latter response, I suppose, is better than imprisonment or execution — assuming homosexuality is a personal choice, which is itself a sin for poorly explained reasons.

Then again we (supposedly) live in an enlightened society in which personal choices are respected.  So if we were to go full-circle: if homosexuality was a choice, should it not be respected in the same way that (say) religion or personal philosophy is respected? (i.e. religion is a choice, and it is vigorously defended)

Or to take a less clear-cut example: are my love-handles a reflection of a personal choice to not work-out enough, eat the right food, etc., or do I secretly have the love-handles gene, passed on from my rotund ancestors past?  Should I blame my parents for this, or just shrug and say to myself “my actions have consequences, and if it comes down to chocolate cake or washboard abs, I chose cake”?  For that matter why is it acceptable for society to judge my love of cake harshly, but not my possesion of genes that give me a fat belley (for example)?

§ Lastly, were people always so bent on such answers?  Is our inability to live with ignorance a by-product of our modern age of abundant information?  Maybe we have answers to so many questions that we have no patience for unanswered ones.

Maybe we want an answer to why because we have always been given one.  Or maybe we judge people’s intelligence by their ability to answer why, and thus we all need to have an answer, just to prove to ourselves that we too are intelligent.

§ Feel free to ask why I wrote this post, though I may not give you a good answer.

Why Is Coffee Addictive?

(this post was reblogged from fakescience)

documerica:

This Area Is Known as Gay Hill near Stockbridge, Vermont. The Farm Was Originally Built in the 1800’s by Ephraim Twitchell, the Famous Vermont Bridge Builder, 1974

Photographer: Jane Cooper

(this post was reblogged from documerica)

flash, iPhones, the “bad old days” and other curmedgery

So I really don’t know anything about developing on the iPhone, or about programming in flash, but I am an opinionated nerd so:

¶ I don’t have an iPhone as I am cheap, and still on a contract (swapping phones -> cancelling contract -> $$$).  What I do have is an old nokia.  One of those first generation “smart phones”.  There are a bunch of games and things on it that nokia provided, and a bunch of “apps” that came from 3rd party developers.  The 3rd party apps are all in java and I haven’t used any since I got the phone (~3yrs ago), neither have I gone out and bought apps (which I could have at one point) to extend the functionality of my phone.  Why?  Java on my phone is soo sloooow.  This is not because the hardware of my phone could not accomplish whatever task the app is supposed to provide (being a notepad, or world clock or whatever), it is because the hardware isn’t really up to running the jvm and the app.  By the time a java app has loaded entire universes have been born and faded through entropic decay, whereas the built in apps load in a snap.

¶ Anyone remember how frothing at the mouth nuts people were back in the day for java and how it was supposed to revolutionize the web by making it interactive, blah blah?  I remember bothering to make applets, and then bothering to take them off my site, since computers back then were fucking slow and applets took forever to load and ½ the time it was easier and faster to just use forms, javascript, and good old http GET/POST to do the work (and ‘lo along came AJAX and some other alphabet soup acronyms which is basically the crusty old days codified and better).  Turns out open, in-browser, webby stuff is faster and easier to maintain and (shock) way more portable than flash will ever be (since all you need is a browser)

¶ A good sounding argument for keeping flash off the iPhone and other small devices might be: Small, portable, electronic devices of today are like those ancient desktops of >10yrs ago hardware wise, flash is like java.  Apple should be foaming at the mouth at the idea of developers turning their shine iPhone into my wizened nokia.

I think people forget how fast our big-boy computers are.  My laptop is a freaking supercomputer compared to my first pentium (the first thing I dragged onto the interwebs, it ran windows 95).  We don’t notice the layers of abstraction between us in userland and the hardware because system resources now-a-days are downright excessive.  (I notice since I cut my teeth on ancient computers and I still find myself staring at the system monitor screaming “why is this application using 1Gb of ram! In my day we didn’t even have 1Gb hard-drives!”  It’s actually depressing how slow my computer is at doing basic tasks given the hardware and what I could accomplish on my old 1GHz AMD Athlon w/ 256Mb ram after I put gentoo on it, but that’s a whole ‘nother rant)

technological cynicism

Sitting back and watching the hysteria around the new iPad, I find I really don’t care that deeply.  Here is a run down of my own feelings:

¶ It is a tablet, woo-hoo.  This is neither new nor revolutionary in and of itself.  Maybe Apple has some secret sauce that will make it unicorn jism, but I’m dubious.  It is just a new shiny thing.

¶ Pinning the hopes of dead-tree media to it seems hilariously naïve in ways that have been explained in many ways over and over and over again.

¶ Maybe having a big attention grabbing tablet will finally get people thinking about fingers as an input device in general.  I can’t really use the multi-touch on my current pc since:

    (a) most programs don’t support multi-touch or gestures

    (b) many controls and gui elements are too small for my chubby fingers to get working

In more general ways I’m finding that I’m getting more and more cynical of “AMAZING NEW TECHNOLOGY!1!!!one!”  Not that new tech things don’t get adopted, aren’t cool, or whatever, just that I no longer see how these things fit into my life as anything but blinking-beeping nuisances (see: my lack of a smart phone)

Now get off my lawn!